The procrastination saga continues
Another day spent doing the bare minimum. The goals I had set for today were postponed yet again. By me,of course. This is so frustrating. I can't go on like this sabotaging myself.
The truth is,not only am I regretting wasting my time on social media but losing my younger self as well. If I compare my way of thinking with that of five years ago,there is a notable shift from a carefree,brave and spontaneous person to a more reserved,careful and hesitant one. Every decision I make I later reject,filled with self-doubt and shame at my every thought. Even this text is now being written on a piece of paper full of smudged words. Even trying to articulate my own feelings seems like a difficult task,this is how much I am being slowed down by overthinking. Enough complaining,tomorrow will be different. This is a promise to the Pandemic journal,I will not let myself be defeated by my negative thoughts.
Try setting small,achievable goals for your day. For example, "Tomorrow,instead of scrolling through Instagram for two hours, I am going to watch a good movie or read a book or go for a walk". Completing one of those tasks might give you a sense of achievement and control over your day.
BeantwoordenVerwijderenA lot of people are currently feeling like they are becoming a more boring version of themselves. We are living through an unnatural situation and it's completely okay to feel like that when there is a lack of social stimulation and creative/adventurous outlets. You are not alone and this won't last forever - we've just got to see this through.
BeantwoordenVerwijderenTake up drinking; not to drown these concerns that you have in the oblivion of the drunkenness or experience our dystopic reality as folk romanticism, not even to erode your perception by the blurriness in order to cope with your ill routine. But to damage your self-image enough so you can start to despise your so-called humanistic nature that you have been indoctrinated to believe that you have. You haven't been born to take "good" decisions, you haven't been born to be good now that we are at it. Nobody's purpose is to reach and best manage their prime. You have been born a mere animal, so be one. Wash yourself of these concepts that do not take you anywhere by imbibing some throat-burning alcohol. Let it burn the pride you have been made to keep.
BeantwoordenVerwijderenThe above is also valid advice.
BeantwoordenVerwijderenInsolent little devils...
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