Still here with my negative thoughts

 It has been a long time since I wrote depressing things. I should probably catch up on that. Another night dwelling on another wasted day. Today, as I was studying a programming language, I got stuck on something very trivial and I wasted a lot of time trying to figure it out. Eventually I found out what was going on but it was all so exhausting. Moreover, the solution was so ridiculously obvious that I felt humiliated. Is my ability to think declining as I am getting older? Or have I always been so slow? And what is the point of trying to do better when there are limits to my abilities? Anyway,it is bedtime, time to turn off my stupid brain.

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  1. Charred broccoli3 april 2021 om 13:39

    Welcome to the programming life. This happens allllllllllll the time.

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  2. Pandemic journal4 april 2021 om 09:12

    And then you cry in a fetal position in the shower?

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  3. Charred broccoli5 april 2021 om 06:53

    Nah,you get used to feeling like an idiot.

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  4. Μίτσιγκαν11 april 2021 om 03:58

    You are setting yourself for a grant failure. Not because of your ineptitude to swift careers but because of your shortsightedness in fathoming your motives to do so while we observe such swifts becoming trendier. You are facing unemployment on your field and you fail to understand that the same debilitating functions that ail the job market in your field also ail the others. And you err because you interpret the resilience of other fields as complete immunity to these functions so you will be surprised to discover that the refurbishing of your career serves nothing.

    We are not unemployed and we do not presume a future of uncertainty because we lack certain skills or intelligence. Our inability to build a bubble of prosperity around us and keep a health mental state is not of innate causes. We are part of a devastated society. I think it is fit on our case to say that we are victims like a Jew would do a century ago.

    What I admonish you to do is stop blaming yourself, realise the actual cause of your issues, brace yourself for the oncoming calamities and stop investing on castles on sand.

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  5. Pandemic journal14 april 2021 om 02:08

    My frustration was not because of the potential unemployment I will face.I have a lifetime to cry over that. Sometimes it takes time and patience to master a skill and that can be discouraging.

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